I know something that can help you with your anxiety and depression.
Growing up my parents, school, work, society, only gave me conditional love. They made it extremely clear that I need to be successful in order to receive love. I managed to meet all these conditions but they just keep raising the bar higher. I kept raising the bar for myself high. I grew to hate that bar, the conditions, the climbing, myself and everything. I got depressed, anxious and spent so much time alone just thinking about the nature of human excistance. I knew logically that there is no meaning in spending so much time in life feeling negative emotions. Depression, anxiety is not how we are meant to live life. But my thoughts and feelings was wondering. What is the cause? What is the answer? What is the truth? Why? Why live? Why love? Why work? Why feel? Why does it hurt? I came to the conclusion that reality isn't the issue here. It's my feelings that is the problem. How do I deal with my feelings?
I found something that works. Give your self unconditional love. The feeling of unconditional love is the fire that will give me the energy to climb any obstacle. Unconditional love will give me a love for life that is irrational, unconditional, unbreakable, imdomniable. We live therefor we must love there is no other meaningful way for me to exist. I love the climb, I love the world, I love and most importantanly I love myself.
When I say love I mean that I have say it, preach it, live it, belive it. My feelings will align to my own promises to my self. I dont take back my words. That's my of the ninja.
We as human beings all seek love. We want it to secure it. Own it. Keep it. Possess it. But the thing is love is a feeling that comes from within our own minds. It's a need evolved from our nature. The lack of love forces us to seekout partners and when they leave us it feels like betrayal.
Unfortunately love to others are filled difficult, unrealistic, unnatural conditions. In order to secure success we compete against each other by raising the bar as high as possible. For many humans it creates long, seemingly endless lives of emotional suffering. Buddist often say that live is suffering and that to eacape the suffering is nirvana. That suffering is the truth of life. I think that may feel good thinking like that too. Easying and accepting the suffering. But I say that life is about love and adventure 💕 ᕙ(⇀‸↼‶)ᕗ because it feels many times more uplifting and my mind and soul feels that is the deepest truth within my heart.
Reality is an illusion created from our own hearths. Master your heart and you will master your reality aswell. I know feel stronger than ever. The fire that fuels me from within is there again. I'm going to adventure and I'm going to love again
❤️🤟ᕙ(⇀‸↼‶)ᕗ
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